October 5

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,102
• Today’s word count: 112
• Thoughts: Well, I didn’t write more than yesterday, but I didn’t have a complete failure of a day. I’ll consider that progress. Finding consistency has been a struggle lately. Maybe I’m starting to win that fight. Only time will tell.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I feel like my goal is always the same. I want to write. And I want to write more. When I barely write the next day it makes me feel like I’m not taking my writing seriously enough, but I spend hours trying to write those words. My only strategy is to keep trying.

October 6

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,186
• Today’s word count: 84
• Thoughts: Writing could have gone a bit better today. Some of the decrease in productivity is my fault. I’ve been distracted reading a very long fanfic. At least reading is somehow related to writing so I’m still engaging that part of my brain in some small way.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Maybe I’ll try to read a bit less fanfiction and write a bit more. It’s hard to tear myself away from a story once I get more than a few chapters in, but I’ll try because I have my own story to finish writing.

October 7

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,244
• Today’s word count: 58
• Thoughts: I thought things were going better, but they ended up so much worse. I’m disappointed and frustrated. I thought I knew what was wrong and was working on fixing it. Now I’m not so sure. There’s something more to this problem I’ve had writing. I need to get to the bottom of this.
• Tomorrow’s goal: If I don’t figure out what’s going on soon, I’m going to lose my mind. Let’s dedicate tomorrow to getting back on track. Everything else can wait, but not for long.

October 8

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,325
• Today’s word count: 81
• Thoughts: I’m stuck in the writing doldrums again. The desire to write is there. I just can’t seem to follow through with any of my plans. I’m stuck in place. All I want to do is move forward but instead of creating, my mind constantly seeks out distraction. The world is awful so I understand why I’m worried about being left alone with my thoughts.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I honestly don’t know what to expect. It isn’t going to be a typical Friday. I’m not running errands in the morning this week. I’ll probably sleep in and see where the rest of the day takes me.

October 9

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,403
• Today’s word count: 78
• Thoughts: It feels like nothing has changed. I’m stuck in the same level of productivity every day. Despair is starting to set in. NaNoWriMo is coming up and I can’t even muster up enough energy/enthusiasm to finish this draft. At this point I’d be fine with not finishing the draft as long as I can get back to writing a decent amount every day.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I just want to write. It’s so hard. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Is it even me? I’m so lost.

October 10

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,480
• Today’s word count: 77
• Thoughts: I’m aware there’s a problem. I’m trying to find a solution. I’m just not there yet. One thing I’m not doing is giving up. I still have to finish this draft. Eventually I will get out of this slump and I want to still have a strong connection to the story when I do.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Stay home. Sit down. Write. I don’t know how much success I’ll have with this plan, but I’m going to try and see what happens. Maybe tomorrow will be the day I have my epiphany and everything starts working again.

October 11

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 197,615
• Today’s word count: 135
• Thoughts: My goal was to really put an effort into writing today. It might not look like it, but I pushed myself pretty hard to get the words I did today. There’s a slight improvement over the last few days, but my word count still isn’t good. What I want to write and what I’m capable of writing isn’t even in the same ballpark these days.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Keep writing. What else can I do? If I don’t sit down and have my writing time I end up feeling off balance for the rest of the day. I have to show up for writing even if I don’t write much once I’m there.

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