January 25

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,655
• Today’s word count: 39
• Thoughts: I had way too much energy again today. I need to figure out how to direct this into writing because so far I’m finding it a lot easier to do everything else. Random things are getting organized, but I’d much rather write. Every time I sit down, I feel like I need to get up and move.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Can I keep the energy and lose the restlessness? I’d really, really love to have the energy to keep writing more and more words.

January 26

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,665
• Today’s word count: 10
• Thoughts: My mind refused to focus. I probably tried to write for too long. There’s a certain point where I know I’m just going to end up rewriting the same line over and over and I need to walk away when I get there.
• Tomorrow’s goal: More writing. Less deleting. I can do this!

January 27

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,689
• Today’s word count: 24
• Thoughts: I was able to sit still to write today. That’s progress. Unfortunately, I was still left sitting staring at my cursor for way too much of my allotted writing time. My confidence is shattered after struggling to write for so long. I want to write, but I feel like I can’t do it well now. It’s probably not true, but I know I’m rusty. I can fix clunky sentences, but writing sentences knowing they’re clunky makes me want to stop and fix them immediately because I know I can do better.
• Tomorrow’s goal: More writing, please? I need to get past cringing at every line I write. The only way I see that happening is by writing so much that I can’t possibly cringe at it all.

January 28

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,696
• Today’s word count: 7
• Thoughts: Today was awful. I struggled so hard and I just didn’t get anywhere. My confidence in my own writing abilities is definitely shaken. I’m not sure where I should go from here. Obviously something needs to change. I think changing my mindset will help a lot, but I don’t know how to go about resetting right now. Getting out of the house and completely changing up my routine for a few days isn’t really possible. There has to be another way.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I have my quest. I need to find a way to change the way I think when attempting to write. There has to be a way to get there from home.

January 29

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,700
• Today’s word count: 4
• Thoughts: Well, I showed up to write. That’s about all I could do. Not much happened during writing time, but I tried.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I don’t know. Maybe I’ll try to write. Maybe I’ll take a day off. I’ll see how I feel in the morning. Right now I think I need to keep trying different things to get myself into a better writing mindset. I haven’t tried not writing for a day in a while. It might be time to try it again.

January 30

No writing progress made.

I decided to take the day off. I don’t know how successful the plan was. We’ll have to see how my writing time goes on Sunday, but I don’t want to put too much pressure on myself because we’re going to be in the midst of a snowstorm tomorrow. I’m always distracted by snow. It’s pretty, but also causes me a lot of worry. Then there’s the extra work is causes if we’re snowed in and need to get out before the landlord can make it over here to shovel the sidewalk in front of the building.

January 31

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 201,702
• Today’s word count: 2
• Thoughts: Wow. What a word count. Today was a bust. I had plenty of time to write, but I was first distracted by snow and later I got knocked down by another migraine. I can’t escape them these days. I blame the weather, the heat running hard, and various disruptions to my routine. The last one is probably making it even harder than usual to write too.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I want to write. I really, really want to write. Will circumstances get in the way of that desire to be productive? Or will I actually get the words written?

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