April 24

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,655
• Today’s word count: 71
• Thoughts: My attempts at writing today felt very middle of the road. It wasn’t good or bad. I didn’t struggle too much, but it wasn’t an easy time either.
• Tomorrow’s goal: As much as I hope for a quiet day full of writing, I know better than to expect that. Instead I will brace myself for chaos and hope I’m surprised with a ton of productive downtime instead.

April 25

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,690
• Today’s word count: 35
• Thoughts: I made a critical error in scheduling my day. It wasn’t anything I could have anticipated, but I’m still frustrated it happened. If I was capable of seeing the future, I would have worked harder to make writing happen before everything got thrown off track.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Write more. I think the key to doing that is starting earlier. It’s like pulling teeth to get myself writing before I feel like everything else is done for the day, but I think I need to find a way to get past that guilt. Writing needs to get done too.

April 26

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,719
• Today’s word count: 29
• Thoughts: Today could have gone better, but it wasn’t a terrible day either. I wanted to write more and that just didn’t happen.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Hopefully I can get more writing done. I don’t know exactly what could have caused it, but this is starting to feel a bit more like burnout.

April 27

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,743
• Today’s word count: 24
• Thoughts: My suspicions of burn out seem to be gathering more and more evidence to prove it. I’m struggling to focus on anything and I seem to run out of energy in no time at all. Even though I can’t pinpoint what might be causing it, I do know what it feels like when I’m burned out.
• Tomorrow’s goal: I’m sure I’ll be stubborn and try to write anyway, but I should really take some time to do things to rest and recover. I want to bounce back quickly. I’m just irritated to feel like this during a Camp NaNoWriMo month.

April 28

No writing progress

The burn out is real. Still have no idea where it came from, but it is here, and I don’t think I’m going to be able to get rid of it in just a day.

April 29

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,753
• Today’s word count: 10
• Thoughts: I wrote! It wasn’t much, but I took the time to make an attempt at writing. I’m happy about that, but I can still tell I’m not in a good headspace for writing.
• Tomorrow’s goal: Maybe I’ll feel more like writing. Maybe I won’t. I’m trying really hard not to push myself to do something I’m in the wrong mental state to do well. That’s just hard because I just want to push myself and be stubborn until it eventually works out for me.

April 30

• Project: The Dreams
• Total word count: 32,780
• Today’s word count: 27
• Thoughts: I’m still in a writing slump. There are two voices fighting in my head at this point. One wants me to just give up for a few days and see if things are better after a total, intentional break. The other voice is very stubborn and doesn’t want to miss out on a single day of potential writing even if I only manage a dozen words a day. I should probably try to find some sort of middle ground and work from there.
• Tomorrow’s goal: If I can find a middle ground, I’ll try working from there. If not, who knows what I’ll end up doing. Maybe it will be a day off from writing.  Maybe I’ll push myself and have a somewhat productive day of writing. There’s only one way to find out.